Humbleness

My new favorite quote right now is "God is the biggest mystery we will ever understand." It is true. God is a mystery. But lucky for us he has revealed himself to us through the Bible and through it we can understand who he is. But there are times when I still don't understand all of who He is and I never will, that would make Him less of God if we could understand all of Him. Like today I was over at the Columbian families house and Paula was asking a lot of questions about what she needed to do to get her family here. Now I don't know the whole story, but I do know she left behind her mom, sister (15 years old) and daughter (5 years old) to flee the country and try to get them up here too. She said that their lives are so in danger that they cant even stay in one place for long of they will be found so they are having to move constantly. And here in the states she has been getting these phone calls at all hours of the day and night where no one says anything. She is so worried that someone is trying to hunt her down. And I assume that she has a right to think that. But today as I listened to her story I could help but think that I will never realize how she feels. How blessed I am that I have never had to face something as she has. I wonder why God chose to put me in the place that I am in. He has a plan and purpose and I guess that there has to be every type of people in the world for it to work. But I feel so unworthy to have all that I do and receive His mercy and grace so often. Coming back home in the car I was again reminded of how Satan likes to attack me. I think a lot of times I don't share the power of Jesus with people because I think that they will think of it as foolishness. Paul himself said in 1st Corinthians that the gospel is foolishness to those that are perishing, but it cant be till they hear it. So in my head today I was thinking, what if I was in Paula's place? I would trust in Jesus cause I know he has a plan and a purpose for the situation. But as I thought, I can tell her that and it be encouraging, Satan through a fiery dart at me and said, No, you cant do that, she will think it is crazy to put her trust and faith in someone she knows nothing of and trust her families life to this person. But really that is what she needs. There is where she will find true peace and hope, no matter what happens. And as for me, my job is to share that with her, after that it is up to the Holy Spirit to open her heart to the truth. I guess some may read this and think, sure it sounds good, but when that situation comes you won't act like you think you will. But let me share a story with you about a girl I know. This girl, Ashley, who goes to my church, is 16. I had the pleasure of getting to know her about a year ago on a short weekend mission trip here in Tennessee. The girl loves Jesus so much. It is evident in her actions and the desires of her heart. It is rare to see a person so young so passionate about the Lord. So this past Friday, her mom (who I should stop here and say she was adopted and he dad died when she was little so its just her and her mom) got sick and went to the doctor. They told her it was the flu and sent her home. That night/early Sat morning she was having a lot of trouble breathing so Ashley was taking her back to the ER and she passed out and died, just like that. So now this girl has lost all her immediate family. But her spirit is unlike any I've ever seen. She knows that Jesus has a plan and that her mom trusted Him and so she is with Him, so she sees no reason to mourn greatly. Of course she has shed tears over her mom, but the joy she has in her heart that comes from Jesus is what has kept her going and will keep doing so.
It was just encouraging to me to see such faith a joy in her at a time like now. I realized that this is what I hope to see in Paula's heart as see goes through this with her family. And not just Paula but everyone. Friends that I have that don't know Jesus. People that I know I will meet here and on the oversees mission field. Knowing Jesus isn't just about going to Heaven or Hell, but its about life now, here on earth. Jesus said he came so that we could have life and life abundantly. I want to share that abundance with the world.